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Surrender, Submit and Lay It All Down

Tonight, I babysat my seven month old niece. She was very sleepy, tired and literally fighting her sleep.  She was throwing a tantrum but I was determined to put her to bed. She cried through her bath. She cried after her diaper change. She cried when I tried to feed her. She cried as I held her and walked her around the house. She kept crying with her eyes focused on everything going on around her.  Then, I reached down into my deep mama-hood skills and pulled out an idea, which I know had to be straight from the Holy Spirit.  I took her in my bedroom and turned off the lights.  She immediately stopped crying!  All I heard was her breathing and I felt her face turning against my shirt as she still tried to see what was going on.  When she realized she couldn’t see anymore, she fell asleep in five minutes flat.  My friends, some of us are like this in the spirit. Some of us are kicking and screaming, fighting the very thing God has told us to do.  We are resisting it because our eyes…

Purification of a Queen Part 2: Come Out From Among Them

In my last post I discussed the importance of having a good name and a good reputation. In this post, we’ll continue to look at some more specific points that helped shaped my life as God was transforming me to become more rooted and grounded in Him.                   Esther was a young lady, who later became queen because of her good name, her countenance and her reputation.  Prior to becoming queen, she was one of the young ladies gathered at the palace when the King’s command and decree went out to gather all the young virgins in Shushan.  These women were taken to the citadel, which is the palace complex built in the city for protection.  Once there, she was secluded and only surrounded by people who would prepare her and protect her as she began her preparations for being presented to the King. The ladies selected to help her during this part of the process were called “choice maidservants” (Esther 2:9).  Once her choice maidservants were assigned, she was then m…

Purification of A Queen Part 1: A Good Name Is Rather To Be Chosen

Reading the book of Esther has taught me a lot about separation, preparation and assignment. As I surveyed her life, some very particular points stood out to me because I noticed God doing the same things to me in my own life. For the next four blog posts, I'm going to point out those very important things that transformed me into becoming a woman of God, rooted and grounded in His word. Proverbs 22:1 NKJV says "A good name is rather to be chosen than great riches, and loving favour rather than silver and gold." After the end of a very bad and abusive marriage, I was an extremely broken woman. My heart was broken, my spirit was broken and my life was a mess. I sought solace and peace through the arms and beds of men, most of whom I barely knew. I was with a controlling man in my marriage so when I finally got free, I rebelled against any type of relationship or anything that seemed like it was controlling me. I was determined to get my strength back and not let anyone ru…

Love Never Fails

If you’ve ever read anything I’ve published, you’ll know that I’ve had plenty of relationship mishaps.  I’ve  been under the influence of a seductive spirit working through a married man, I’ve dated a man who was cheating on me, I was soul-tied to my high school boyfriend for 18 years and I’ve even dated a great guy who wasn’t ready to be in a relationship. Yes, I’ve had plenty of mishaps.  However, after each one, I made a point to find out what role I played in the mishap.  For some, I was warned and didn’t heed the warning.  For others, I was blinded and caught off guard but still stayed a lot longer than I should have.  There were times when I felt stupid for falling too deeply for a man, for not walking away when I should and for being too stubborn to listen to God while He was trying to tell me to walk away!  I’ve blamed myself, cried, felt bad, recovered and even rejoiced.  But there is one very important thing I did not do.  I didn’t let it change the very nature of who I am.…