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Ignore the Signs If You Want To, Part 2

Yes, Leo was engaged to be married! My heart shattered into a million pieces. I held on to the painful secret for 3 more days as I walked around with a bleeding heart. He didn’t have any idea that I knew.We didn’t live in the same city and at that point it was really good that we didn’t! I finally confronted Leo with the help of a third party since he lied to me and told me his phone wasn’t working properly.One never knows when his or her lie will catch up with them. Leo’s lie caught up with him while he was in the car with his soon to be new wife.Three lives were changed in a matter of minutes. Later that evening, I spoke with her and we compared timelines.He lied to the both of us, except she had a bigger decision to make because she was marrying him in two weeks.After I got off the phone, I cried like a baby. The rejection pierced my heart so strongly and now, I was left to pick up all the pieces by myself.I prayed two things “Lord, don’t let my heart grow bitter towards men because…

The Power of Communication—Never Stop Talking, Never Stop Listening

For the last four years I’ve been friends with an extraordinary woman of God. We met by way of a friend of an ex-boyfriend.These last four years have been the most eye opening for me becauseI’ve learned more about me—the good, the bad and the ugly. Our friendship started off swift and strong with me being me and she being she! LOLWe are two people filled with the love of God in our hearts so we made no hesitation to show the love of God being that we were sisters in Christ. Two years into our friendship, a shift happened.My flaws started showing up and a mirror was put in my face.What I saw was my judgmental side and inability to receive love.These two combinations were my classic defense mechanisms to protect my heart.For two more years after that, confusion entered in and I gradually shut down.I stopped sharing my heart because I didn’t know how to operate after being called out. I felt like I was on a spiritual surf board going up and down with each new wave hitting me. For me, thin…

Connections

About two months ago, I pulled out a book I’d stashed away for a couple of years titled Heavenly Places by Kimberly Cash Tate.As I sat under the drier (one should not be under the dryer without a good book) and began to read, I quickly became immersed in the story line.I finished the book in record time and took the liberty of e-mailing this newly discovered author.I explained in detail how richly blessed I was by this book.Prior to reading her book, I’d been feeling a longing in my spirit to experience something different when it came to showing and receiving the love of God. I wanted to move past my skin color and enter a desegregated world of honoring, loving and worshipping the Lord.God placed the desire in me so I knew it was a matter of time before He gave me my desire.Never did I imagine that two months later He would expose me to a world of women from across the nation dedicated to supporting each other through her blog. My first impression of her blog was “Wow God! Is this wha…